mysteries

I keep looking past myself to understand her. Very little makes sense about the whole situation. We'll talk. We'll hug goood-bye (right from date #1 !! Her lead!) but our meetings are infrequent. It is great being pulled into the depths of another's mind and soul. I really like the time spent togeether. I just don't understand why the cancellations; why the business; why the confusion about her own life. I can just hope that my worst fears--her trying to change herself (even in part) for me--are true. Because that would explain it all away. Without the explanation I am forced to remember my restrained remark a couple years ago: failing to answer her question about I like her. At the time it was inappropriate to answer. Now, some email and phone and dates (some broken) later, it may remain inappropriate.

Well, I'll let her try to phone me from the train. Technically it may work for a few minutes. Those will be nice, special minutes to me.