some days I fade out

Once upon a time I had a slight idea of what I was supposed to do. That was nice because I like to have reachable goals which interest me. Now, I am far away from that situation. I am taking part in activities because they are good for me. I am trying to enjoy them. And my studies. I think I do enjoy them, but, they are quite foreign compared to how I used to be. It will be interesting to see whether I really have changed. Maybe I did not change. Maybe I am still the same person who has grown accustomed to all of these strange and new and different experiences. Whatever these experiences are, they are pretty new to me. My secondary desire is to like them in the long run. Just now, in the short term, I think I already enjoy some of them.

Wow, there may be hope for me to adapt without changing or losing what I started with. On that subject, I do feel as though I am missing a lot of that with which I began. Or maybe I have just transitioned.

I used to be able to solve fact-based problems without conscious thought, and without time. Now I can stride through social problems without changing pace. But, facts now become lost in my head and the overriding ideas cloud over the tangible issues.

Where do you stand?